History

I was thinking about a post that will have to do something with mdl, but after thinking a lot I've decided not to reveal yet some 'secret projects' we're working on...
Everything is just so 'fast' and it's hard to follow. I learn and learn but nothing seems to come from it. Just more and more things I understand that i don't know... and probably because of it my health is starting to get worse again.
My headaches are back with my depression... sort of a funny feeling of 'lost' and 'unsure'.
I don't have a single idea how i'll pass everything... and it just makes me so sad and scared. I know I shouldn't care, and there's always the possibility to do nothing and just live of my husband's money.
But I want to promote myself, and be also a director... I want to remain an actress... but why... why is this world so cruel and wont let me do my favorite things? because of money, papers and, so called, 'order'?
All those are covering the faces of people nowadays... haha, it'll be quite funny when we'll get beaten up 'by our papers' and not 'by our faces'. Old joke, but reversed it sounds even funnier.
Anyway, I lost it again... I should go back to the main subject. Which is, of course, the past year's mdl logos (you can see the new Halloween one on mdl).

Vday, BunnyEaster, EggEaster and Happy1year. There was a Christmas one... but We lost it, eventually...
Aren't they really cute? :) even though I paint so bad hahaha.

BirthDay

And there is one Random person, commonly known as 'me' who had a birthday today. Did you know about it? 'cause I bet many didn't.
For a birthday it was pretty neat, not too annoying and not too nice at the same time. I got a few things, mainly a pair of socks, non working tablet, brown chocolate which i wont eat and Germanhumor book. How nice, isn't it?
My little sister gave me a bunny... how sweet of her. It was something I really liked... isn't she cute? her eyes were eaten out by someone bad and someone good was trying to save her, so he put her together again.

Well yes, beside waking up at 7 morning in order to allow any person on earth to tell me I'm awesome and staying awake most of this time (admit, I fell asleep during the time my first guests came... I was in my room though, and they were talking in the living room for one hour without noticing I'm not there...), I actually had fun getting money from people (in total it only made 25 euro, but nah... better than nothing. I need work... god) and in the evening seeing a movie.
Gah, this movie was pretty lame though, horrible acting and annoying story. God, who wants to see aliens fighting little children? and... two teens? and a guy with a chicken brain? sadly, I do?
Not really, but I really laughed hard at a few moments, I guess bad humor is good when coming to annoying days. There was this 'awesome guy' who said something like 'ohhhhhhhhhhh', in such a terrible voice (you can imagine) and than his face when he said, 'I mean... no'. haha.
Anyhow, I got myself an awesome scarf which (like I've said today) feels very special. Imagine a person with an awesome, soft and hairy hair... and you're touching the awesome hair... gah...
I got another autumn figure... and I must find the old and place them near each other, it'll be like an art of humanity.
And I had two cakes... god. One with my name on it and a card, written on the cake. The second was cold 'kalten hund'... it's not bad but could be better... I guess (more white chocolate!).
:P People who I like will get more personal info about other awesome stuff that happened to me today. So mostly, beside being hell tired right now, it wasn't a bad birthday at all. Wish to have this year my dreams to come true.

New Search -- soon in mdl

ah... the days go by and we try to prepare the site for the upcoming animations in so many ways. One of them will the search of course that will become better in a few perspectives.
You can already see a preview here:

It's only the first shot towards a better, helpful search that will allow us all to have an awesome time when we browse mdl.

What reminds me, have you seen the awesome work that was done on the merging? From about 199 titles, we dropped down to 60. Sadly, maurice is still alive and the Chinese 'wonderful' sources are still annoying as always... so we weren't able to hit the '0' (was that a word play?... lol).

I wish I didn't sleep so much today (2pm)... I wanted to watch dragon drive... I want to finish it since it's sort of awesome and lame at the same time...
Maybe I'll start watching the one before the newest season of digimon afterwards?...
That'll be quite interesting...

Noodles, Manga and other stuff

Yay! I got my new mushishi manga... that's awesome, I'll soon have it all. Maybe after i'm done with tsubasa as well I'll start some really cool action manga, if you have any recommendations, feel free to share.
I'm so tired, actually. I had guests today and those are 'stressful' days for me, as I need to prepare a lot (the house)as well as do things most of the time. Though, I'm happy I learned a bit today, if fact, for me it was quite a lot.
I got my Putt Putt (saves the zoo) game again, I'm going to play it until I'll see myself playing it in my dreams... lol, not really... I have 'Dragon Driver' to watch. That's a cool one... something like digimon, but bad (similar to the newer seasons haha).
I also ate noodles, I didn't expect them though... I thought I'll get to eat some really bad Chinese food in the wannabe restaurant near my house. Now my mouth hurts, since salt got between my teeth and it aches.
Anyhow, I guess it was a good day after all, since I got a lot of Yamamura Kouji's shorts, probably after watching them all I'll be able to write cool synopses.

MDL is going pretty fine, it makes me happy. We have almost 700 animations already, with original synopses for them all... that's awesome. Even though other sites might have a lot of animations, way more than us, they mostly don't own the things they write... in a way. I thought ann is a good site for synopses... but recently I saw so many identical synopses to the original one (aka: wikipedia / jap sites) that it made me sick.
I wish we had the people from mal who write synopses... since it's so hard to manage, pretty much alone, to find things I've watched and write them a synopsis.

"Ja!", the water near me says... and somehow it makes me smile, each time I see it. Something about it is motivating - ja!
Recently I'm easy to fall into depression, since I must learn, but I can't out of laziness and unnecessary feelings...
I guess I need that sort of push forwards... and time, yes... I need tones of time.

Nuts X.x

I hate japanfans, they are hell annoying. I just can't stand their 'Japan love' because hell, japan is nothing more than a country and Japanese people, as far as I know, are not gods. It makes me want to throw up each time I say 'Japan', even if it's not even the subject, just mentioning it, and they start to scream like monkeys.
Anyway, speaking of japan, I watched the first episode of 'ryuusei no kizuna', I felt pretty sad. I'm disappointed with flcl and lustmord, actually. Despite the fact I really hate flcl, I must admit he has an awesome taste in dramas and because of that I tend to pick stuff to watch when I read a positive comment by him... however, from the first episode it doesn't seem like something I'll be able to stick with for too long. I hope it'll get much better, or it'll become another unfortunate case like liar game with horrible Toda Erika and her stupid friends.
I didn't like Ninomiya in the first episode as well, maybe I'm watching too many old actors lately and my standards became higher... but I didn't see the same 'good actor' I've noticed in 'door to door'. I'd give it another chance anyway, since lustmord likes it... there must be at least something small that made her like it?...
My day was pretty neat, I'd say... nothing special like always. I almost forgot about tomorrow, which was quite funny since my husband didn't even mention it... so I could as well forget.
Most of the day I've ate, learned or insulted stupid japanfans, ah, and fangirls.
I'm starting to sound like a walking study book... since I have so much information about the 'Kalter Krieg' and the 'Bundeswehr'. I hope I'm at least getting better with German, beside learning new information... because in the end, no matter how much I know I need to figure out how to put it into words in German, and it's the hard part.
I've noticed that the more your learn, the less your brain hurts in the proses. Makes me kind of happy. Or is it only my determination that kicks the laziness away and wont let my brain suffer?
Tomorrow I'll get my first birthday present, my Mushishi manga (2nd Vol). Sadly most of my friends probably wont give me anything... and it makes me sad, but it doesn't matter since I'm bad with presents as well.
Generally, I think the best present for me now will be to pass everything and get what I want... and Finally be able to go and become the director I want to be...
For me being an actress is nothing more than passing the time, since it's fun to hang on the stage, but I feel like I'll start to grow roots and never be able to show off before my model director. I want to achieve world domination.
I wonder, why didn't I marry a director? or someone who has anything to do with the film/theater industry... in the end it is the best for my dreams...
but I guess that it doesn't matter, since I don't like getting my things too easy. That's why I'm growing fat.

Oldies Are Awesome

Oh, there is a pretty room for me too, since my old blog was closed. I found this site pretty epic, so I've decided to stick with it for a while.
I hate the fact that my net wont work good since I moved here, it's just annoying... my Internet connection wont get through since I'm living in the deeps of a valley.
I wonder when was the last time I ate something I really liked... it's like watching good and bad animations. You can watch both, but you enjoy only the deep and meaningful ones. Solids are also fine, but you always search for a better masterpiece.
Oh Gott, I wish I would stop talking nonsense and start focusing on getting my diploma... it's my last chance to get it anyway, since I wont try hard again. People should really learn hard in school and not drop out, it's the only way to get later on into the uni.
Actually, I'm pretty much into the Cold war right now, since I've started reading about it. I wonder, isn't it the best type of war ever existed beside the mind wars in seondeok yeowang?
Oh Gott, soon I'll be even older... I'm getting older every day. My back starts hurting and I just fall into depression thinking of how sad it'll be to wake up tomorrow, hugging the blanket. At least I don't have my morning bauchschmerzen anymore, everything thanks to watching yamanade hen. They actually gave me a good advice of drinking each time you wake up a big, full glass of water.
I was working the whole day, from 6am to 2pm in placing wood inside the shed... I think I died at least three times, or at least my back. It was endless at first, and than little by little, clearing one part after another, I was able to mark myself that the hill is not staying as it is, but getting smaller. Sysiphusarbeit.
But even though, I guess it was fun in a way, since I was working for a change in the -1°C cold outside... felt nostalgic in some absurd way.
Well, at least I fell asleep afterwards and didn't catch a cold (for now). The winter will be long and cold... and I wish I had a tablet.