Cat's Cradle

Cat's Cradle is a novel by Kurt Vonnegut, who might have been a big man if he wasn't born in Indiana. Anyhow, that's not the point of what I will write now, and probably... there will not be a real point to my words, but nah, we can listen to mostly anything. I was joking up until now actually, so don't mind me at all.
Yesterday, I completed this book actually, and found it quite interesting... and in the same time so pointless. I mean, who would want to read something so silly each day before going to sleep?!
I must say, this was not even humorous, only filled with true words of a true man who said what he had to say. I'm surprised the USA government didn't forbid it, after all maybe they just lost the point.
The novel talks about a writer who does a research about what the Americans did on the day when the bomb fell of Hiroshima. He meets the children of the men who created the bomb, different people on the way and in the end even sees the end of the world. Gah, that's an awesome story actually... yet pretending to be so awesome, it actually shows us how pointless the world is.
I really liked it despite the fact it is half the way to be more pointless than pointless. "Busy, busy, busy" I told myself yesterday when I noticed that there is a male character named 'Lavi' in an anima I wanted to watch for a while.

Futaishangurila

There are some words in the world, that can surely make you wonder... 'where did they came from?', those are mostly my nicknames. For a long while, I thought there is some meaning behind my favorite nickname, but in the end I don't even know if there was any. Some of them are pretty obvious though, yet they always have something special in them.
I want it to keep snowing, I thought... somehow it makes me kind of sleepy... and wondering.
I miss... I don't even know what it is anymore, what do I miss at all? There is surely an answer out there, which is pretty clear to me... yet not clear at all. I'm sad, waiting all this time... all the time...
I wonder why I've decided to write about it... I don't really have an idea... it's like the hole of the donut... when you make it, you can't stop fighting with yourself about the small, last part that left.

When I watch people hanging out together, making projects... I envy them so much. I don't like most humans... I rather hate them and find them dumb... yet somehow when I'm sitting right there, it can be any person I hate...
I envy this happiness... even though I know it's only a lie in the end. Everything has it's breaking point.

My wish for the new year?... I want to start over... I guess. I want to decide things over...
I really don't know. I'd probably just end up here again, wont I? I'm that silly...

I hate actors. I hate them the most.

Ballet Shoes

I felt really nice watching this movie, actually. It had (somewhat)nice acting, almost well made characters and a few meaningful ideas.
I must agree the beginning was a bit rushed. The first scenes were really charming, but I couldn't get the whole idea without stopping and trying to organize everything in my head. However, as soon as the 'prologue' was over, they smoothly moved into the next time spot.
I must admit the original story was much better, and this adaptation ruined it all. I remember reading it, and yet so much of the movie was made differently. I can't even agree with Emma Watson casted as Pauline, she just can't match the original role. However, despite this fact, when I separate both pieces I had nice time watching it, since it became some sort of childish drama about girls who do random things.
I had different thoughts along the way, I didn't lead my mind into this blank place where every sister had her career and it got into her head. I asked myself questions about relationship between siblings, whether it has something to do with genes or not. I asked myself about the way the women felt, as a person who went through so much at the end. Those parts I found quite amusing.
The only reason I believe the acting was good, was because of some really qualified actors that were in that film, and also the little girl, Posy (I just like that type of acting, and she also danced well, having a really good body language and special movements). Emma Watson proved she can do something a bit different from the idea of Harry Potter, yet she showed no acting skills at all. I guess going with the flow will describe it in the best way (The atmosphere created the "acting").
Some scenes were really lovely, I must admit, as they are. Heartwarming scenes where, for example, Petrova washes the car and talks about her dreams.
Speaking of which, did anyone notice the funny part about Petrova's character? she wanted to go and fly in the sky, yet when she had a chance to fly on the stage she wasn't a bit happy. I guess the way they made her in the movie was weird to me, she had some engineering dream rather than flying.
Despite all the good things I said, and my positive opinion, I must also write that nothing could be more ridiculous than the ending. It felt like they had no idea what to do now, and just randomly did something. That ruined the whole film - believe or not - turning it into a fantasy, fairylike story which may be nice to watch when you're bored or depressed.
I'll sum up saying that's watchable, quite enjoyable if you're doing something in between, since the movie is not really caring away or anything. I had about 7 or 6 breaks in the middle when I did other things as well. Probably that's why I'm feeling too positive about it.
Just watch it to pass the time, I guess. It's comical (quite). It's taking itself too serious.
God, what could three girls do with an avarge to bad acting and horrible directing? relay on us having better things to do?

Ballet Shoes, as said.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Shallows

Finally, I'm getting one of my best chances to say how much I hate Harry Potter, the people who actually think it's good and the woman behind it, because she thinks she's too much. Yes, I guess the idea of a magic school sounded pretty cool at the first place, but unfortunately J.K.Rowling wrote too many books.
I mean, yes, that's pretty cool to sit and read the first book, thinking that maybe you'll be able to leave your reality and find yourself in this magic world she created. No wait, fantasy was created long before Rowling! how shocking! (X.x). If I'll hear ever again, "I like Rowling better than Tolkien", I swear I'll stub this person to death. Not that I like Tolkien that much, I just believe idiots shouldn't exist. If you don't want to reveal your real intelligence quotient, I recommend not saying it in front of intellectuals... they'll just realize you're lying about yourself being 'smart'.
Now about the film, oh dear. I hope no one will kill me after saying it's one of the worse films I've ever seen in my whole life. I mean, beside a few Koreans and Americans junk pieces, I haven't seen such a bad film in a long while.
That goes for any aspect: acting, directing, filming, screen play, original book etc etc.
Like I said before, the idea of the book could be ok, though it was written horribly. I usually never read a book written like some dialog between 13 years old wanna be rebels who tell each other what happened the other day ("she told me... and than we went there... and saw... and than harry said"). However, this time I had to bear it, because sadly it was too famous for me to avoid. I had to read it to the end in order to say, surely, that no line, no idea - nothing - was written good. NO ONE can tell me anymore that I didn't finish this damn book and can't state my opinion.
Anyhow, as a film the last book could be pretty visual, filled with effects and no acting at all, but even that was missing (oh, unlike 'casshern' for example. They just knew what a horrible cast they had and actually faced this fact by creating a 'visual effects' film, not even trying to relay on the actors who just disappeared in the background). So basically, what I'm trying to say is, that the acting (all along the Harry Potter films) was low leveled as ever.
As children, they could still cover up the lack of their talent, but as soon as they grew up the cuteness vanished and anyone, who has any common sense, could tell they are pretty horrible. Well, other actors sell as well, since they're so hot. I guess that doesn't matter at all... acting... and talent, nah, who cares about those nowadays?
What disturbed me the most, was the fact that they do too many actions, or too less. Have you EVER seen a person argue with another, and in order to say a line he has to go across the room to the other side and say what he had on his mind?
And what about people who stand there, watching you, and just wait for you and your friend to tell bad stuff about one another... until they have their line to speak? I recommend watching the film again, with my point in your mind... you'll finally notice their acting is horrible. Face it, people, when you say something, no matter what, you have something you want to 'say' with your 'lines'. Same goes for the characters you play, they have the 'undertext'. What are you trying to say? don't think. Just feel. If you can't, just stop trying to act something... you'll just make a fool out of yourself.
Going back to the scene that so annoyed me in this film, I'm talking about the argue of Ron and Harry. I thought at first, when I saw it before the film, that it's a 'pre-production' scene that had nothing to do with the movie. But I was pretty wrong, actually. Without cutting anything out, they just played the scene as it is... making it look like a scene from some project of a (terrible, with no talent at all) team in the finals of the filming courses. I can actually show you this scene from another movie, 20 minutes long, took before the graduation of a person I knew. Might be funny to compare.
I just don't get how Shallow this movie went with all the fights because of envy... did I miss it in the book? or it wasn't there at all? Not bothered enough to look, I'm not that bored.
The point above just made it look like a really bad filmed teen, something, comedy, with low leveled romance and some dumb jokes (oh yes, Ron being kissed by a lady that thinks he's her husband. Hahaha... not).
Speaking of kisses, haven't harry potter kissed any possible girl in the whole films set? The scene with Harry and Hermione was completely stupid, in my eyes. Was it really everything that Ron saw there? That's just plain dumb... I'd say. Wouldn't be 'The Worse Nightmare' for me (or any other HUMAN).

"We've wondered what is it".
"What is it? well, the sign of the deathly hallows, of course".
"The what?".
"The deathly hallows".

 Like seen above, the script is really 'seriously' thought of, indeed. Doesn't it sound great to speak like this in real life? I'd find such a thing completely dumb and laugh, probably. Once, I've tried to write a '20 minutes' script to a play that lasted 2 hours (original). I wanted to preform it in a festival. In the end, I gave up on it, since I actually can admit (unlike some of us, apparently) it failed. Now find the Similarities.
It sounded actually like the book at some parts (which is not a compliment, since the book was so horrible), and the scenes seemed rushed and unorganized. Everything happened so fast and unrealistic, that made me sad. Not that I like Harry Potter, it just made me sad I'm wasting my time on watching such a junk only to put my ideals in place. No one will be able to tell me now, that this movie -- compared to the others -- was good. It wasn't.
What I did like, and could see it coming though, was the 'visual tale' that was made with animation. That was a good pick from the first place, because animation can show in many cases what other things can't show. I liked the feeling it delivered, and was pretty sad to go back to the film.
The ending was obvious, and everything went pretty obvious in the way the scenes were made, that's why I'm not appreciating the director at all. Even though I didn't expect much from the movie, or more likely I expected it to be too horrible to watch, yet I was dissapointed. Can you imagine how bad it was?
I'm starting to get the feeling that every film from now on, and every book as well will be really horrible. Why you ask? well, I haven't seen too many things from the past two years that were anything worthy to watch. It feels like humans forgot quality. Talented people who will make a breakthrough can't be found anywhere.
For the first time, pretty much, I feel completely lost and sad, as for the future of the sinking cultures that become one with the American industrylike idea. Everything, just one after another, loses it's wonderful concept and meaning.
Who really cares that Harry Potter is so horrible? It earned so much money. Who cares that children will read such a horrible book as Harry Potter? They don't read anything else anyway.
I don't want to think how this world will look in the future with no changes...I don't want to see the world so low. Let's just make a change and stop this madness, and try to make good pieces, and work hard to make everything better.
Because making something 'worth watching' for the humanity, means underestimating it. It means you don't believe those idiots, out there, on the streets, can read and watch good things too.
Just try it people, try making better things... and than the quality of the society, thinking and ideas will grow wider and wider.
I think that will be all for today, I'm happy I said what I had about this movie, about people in general and stated my mind. I guess most of you might say it's only my point of view, and that you enjoy movies with really good looking guys or girls... but take a deep breath and think. Think, if you can.

MDL V3 Building, part 1.

Today, after finally waiting for such a long while since we actually announced mdl's third version, you'll be able to see few developments, and the blooming ground we're making.
This system will be better in many technical ways, have a lot of options and also will be suited for a lot of users.

First sketch we made for the new design:

first steps of work:

We can't find really how to change the inner mdl to fit right for animations, dramas and so on yet... but you can see a few tries already:

I hope you'll stick up with our messy work a bit more. We have a lot of funny ideas, and as you saw, the spotlights of the site went into a different direction.

The search is awesome, I must tell you all... it's just not even similar to what you've seen before in our site.

The profile and the lists, which our site features will be now so close and available in only one click.

A new logo, groups, more possibilities and also an wide open door to add anything else.

You can drop here, or by my profile in mdl, a comment about ideas, things you want to see in the new version and whatever comes to your mind.

Part one ends here XP.

Why?

I don't really need to think hard when I watch directors to know why it is my dream. But sometimes I just feel it's something so big...
I feel like my small feet aren't able to step such huge steps anymore...
My body gets all numb and I start to shake each time I see famous actors on meeting with fans, or good directors.
I'm not the type of fan to scream, and also not to ask autograph... I'm not really a fan of anything at all...
But I want to stand there... I want to stand on the other side and want to hear people telling me how happy they are...
I want to be a person who can make other people famous and loved. I want also to make people understand good material and ideas... good acting...

I'm so happy to sit here right now and know that someday in the future I'll be like this... but yeah, I'm kinda sad those days...
yet I have a lot of inspiration... maybe I should write.

Naruto view

Well, I've decided long ago to read this idiotic comics, quite aware of the fact it'll totally waste my time. How long was it? 2 month maybe, since I've just 'decided',  yet did nothing.
Finally, I've decided to read it (I'm not bored enough to buy it)... so far I'm at the 4th volume.
Positive points were the beginning, that I quite liked, was the 'characters' introduction' in the few starting chapters. Pretty strait to the point, and moving fast to the 'interesting part'.
I could actually think it's quite boring, since everything is focusing on some brat who feels like he's something and try to stuck himself in any possible situation. Funny, but everyone encourage him. But well, since it's a children's comics, I guess it's quite typical.
Though, I don't see how showing off blood, dying people, pictures of naked woman and saying that 'true ninjas are the ones who have killed' could be kiddish... gah, I suppose I should not understand. 'Just shut up and watch weird stuff happening' is one of the most basic rules of Japanese fictional anima/comics world.

Back to the point -- The characters are so annoying. I remember when watching (until I couldn't bear it anymore) the series, I've noticed they are so repetitive and dumb. I don't get why people like them at all. Splitting some 'sad past' on them wont make their world full.

I'll keep writing about my progress in the future... I'll try to bear this comics to the end. Let's do our best.

Piggisem

Happy BD for hideki! it's funny that September-November have so many birthdays... Well, in any case it's quite fun to mess around, eat cake and other 'happy and pinky' things people do.
Positive points are me getting tones of presents... I'll list them all of course, just in case that someone will claim they aren't mine, or never existed :P (people tend to do that lately, for some idiotic reason).

- 3rd vol of mushishi.
- 6th vol of Tsubasa Chronicle.
- Dance Board (ya, I know it's the 18th century, but I just can't help but liking it).
- A bottle of water.
- Two packs of tissues (Ja!).
- The first book of Moribito (the awesomeness).
- Horror dvd collection (as part of my 100 dvds thingy).
- Historical dvd collection (as part of my 100 dvds thingy).
- Other dvd collection parts (as part of my 100 dvds thingy).
- Jumong!!! (yes, i know it's under dvd collection part, but I just wanted to mention how awesome I am, and you're not :O).
- New random Shoujo manga called 'Black Bird' if I'm not mistaken.
- The last train in the shop (Because I'm way awesomer than you, who wanted to buy the train... BUT I DID).
- A red star for my room's decoration.
- A cake (which I already ate)

I think that's all, though I feel there are so many other things I forgot.  Well, nothing can be done about it...
Now I only wait for my two USB thingies, to use my Dancethingy and my Tablethingy...
meh meh, I'm so awesome.

But I can't keep wondering... why the hell the number of shura no toki's episodes reduced by more than half... That's a mystery. I even found a friend of mine who actually saw the same shura no toki as me... and she also claims it has more than 50 episodes.
I adore this animation even more now.

History

I was thinking about a post that will have to do something with mdl, but after thinking a lot I've decided not to reveal yet some 'secret projects' we're working on...
Everything is just so 'fast' and it's hard to follow. I learn and learn but nothing seems to come from it. Just more and more things I understand that i don't know... and probably because of it my health is starting to get worse again.
My headaches are back with my depression... sort of a funny feeling of 'lost' and 'unsure'.
I don't have a single idea how i'll pass everything... and it just makes me so sad and scared. I know I shouldn't care, and there's always the possibility to do nothing and just live of my husband's money.
But I want to promote myself, and be also a director... I want to remain an actress... but why... why is this world so cruel and wont let me do my favorite things? because of money, papers and, so called, 'order'?
All those are covering the faces of people nowadays... haha, it'll be quite funny when we'll get beaten up 'by our papers' and not 'by our faces'. Old joke, but reversed it sounds even funnier.
Anyway, I lost it again... I should go back to the main subject. Which is, of course, the past year's mdl logos (you can see the new Halloween one on mdl).

Vday, BunnyEaster, EggEaster and Happy1year. There was a Christmas one... but We lost it, eventually...
Aren't they really cute? :) even though I paint so bad hahaha.

BirthDay

And there is one Random person, commonly known as 'me' who had a birthday today. Did you know about it? 'cause I bet many didn't.
For a birthday it was pretty neat, not too annoying and not too nice at the same time. I got a few things, mainly a pair of socks, non working tablet, brown chocolate which i wont eat and Germanhumor book. How nice, isn't it?
My little sister gave me a bunny... how sweet of her. It was something I really liked... isn't she cute? her eyes were eaten out by someone bad and someone good was trying to save her, so he put her together again.

Well yes, beside waking up at 7 morning in order to allow any person on earth to tell me I'm awesome and staying awake most of this time (admit, I fell asleep during the time my first guests came... I was in my room though, and they were talking in the living room for one hour without noticing I'm not there...), I actually had fun getting money from people (in total it only made 25 euro, but nah... better than nothing. I need work... god) and in the evening seeing a movie.
Gah, this movie was pretty lame though, horrible acting and annoying story. God, who wants to see aliens fighting little children? and... two teens? and a guy with a chicken brain? sadly, I do?
Not really, but I really laughed hard at a few moments, I guess bad humor is good when coming to annoying days. There was this 'awesome guy' who said something like 'ohhhhhhhhhhh', in such a terrible voice (you can imagine) and than his face when he said, 'I mean... no'. haha.
Anyhow, I got myself an awesome scarf which (like I've said today) feels very special. Imagine a person with an awesome, soft and hairy hair... and you're touching the awesome hair... gah...
I got another autumn figure... and I must find the old and place them near each other, it'll be like an art of humanity.
And I had two cakes... god. One with my name on it and a card, written on the cake. The second was cold 'kalten hund'... it's not bad but could be better... I guess (more white chocolate!).
:P People who I like will get more personal info about other awesome stuff that happened to me today. So mostly, beside being hell tired right now, it wasn't a bad birthday at all. Wish to have this year my dreams to come true.

New Search -- soon in mdl

ah... the days go by and we try to prepare the site for the upcoming animations in so many ways. One of them will the search of course that will become better in a few perspectives.
You can already see a preview here:

It's only the first shot towards a better, helpful search that will allow us all to have an awesome time when we browse mdl.

What reminds me, have you seen the awesome work that was done on the merging? From about 199 titles, we dropped down to 60. Sadly, maurice is still alive and the Chinese 'wonderful' sources are still annoying as always... so we weren't able to hit the '0' (was that a word play?... lol).

I wish I didn't sleep so much today (2pm)... I wanted to watch dragon drive... I want to finish it since it's sort of awesome and lame at the same time...
Maybe I'll start watching the one before the newest season of digimon afterwards?...
That'll be quite interesting...

Noodles, Manga and other stuff

Yay! I got my new mushishi manga... that's awesome, I'll soon have it all. Maybe after i'm done with tsubasa as well I'll start some really cool action manga, if you have any recommendations, feel free to share.
I'm so tired, actually. I had guests today and those are 'stressful' days for me, as I need to prepare a lot (the house)as well as do things most of the time. Though, I'm happy I learned a bit today, if fact, for me it was quite a lot.
I got my Putt Putt (saves the zoo) game again, I'm going to play it until I'll see myself playing it in my dreams... lol, not really... I have 'Dragon Driver' to watch. That's a cool one... something like digimon, but bad (similar to the newer seasons haha).
I also ate noodles, I didn't expect them though... I thought I'll get to eat some really bad Chinese food in the wannabe restaurant near my house. Now my mouth hurts, since salt got between my teeth and it aches.
Anyhow, I guess it was a good day after all, since I got a lot of Yamamura Kouji's shorts, probably after watching them all I'll be able to write cool synopses.

MDL is going pretty fine, it makes me happy. We have almost 700 animations already, with original synopses for them all... that's awesome. Even though other sites might have a lot of animations, way more than us, they mostly don't own the things they write... in a way. I thought ann is a good site for synopses... but recently I saw so many identical synopses to the original one (aka: wikipedia / jap sites) that it made me sick.
I wish we had the people from mal who write synopses... since it's so hard to manage, pretty much alone, to find things I've watched and write them a synopsis.

"Ja!", the water near me says... and somehow it makes me smile, each time I see it. Something about it is motivating - ja!
Recently I'm easy to fall into depression, since I must learn, but I can't out of laziness and unnecessary feelings...
I guess I need that sort of push forwards... and time, yes... I need tones of time.

Nuts X.x

I hate japanfans, they are hell annoying. I just can't stand their 'Japan love' because hell, japan is nothing more than a country and Japanese people, as far as I know, are not gods. It makes me want to throw up each time I say 'Japan', even if it's not even the subject, just mentioning it, and they start to scream like monkeys.
Anyway, speaking of japan, I watched the first episode of 'ryuusei no kizuna', I felt pretty sad. I'm disappointed with flcl and lustmord, actually. Despite the fact I really hate flcl, I must admit he has an awesome taste in dramas and because of that I tend to pick stuff to watch when I read a positive comment by him... however, from the first episode it doesn't seem like something I'll be able to stick with for too long. I hope it'll get much better, or it'll become another unfortunate case like liar game with horrible Toda Erika and her stupid friends.
I didn't like Ninomiya in the first episode as well, maybe I'm watching too many old actors lately and my standards became higher... but I didn't see the same 'good actor' I've noticed in 'door to door'. I'd give it another chance anyway, since lustmord likes it... there must be at least something small that made her like it?...
My day was pretty neat, I'd say... nothing special like always. I almost forgot about tomorrow, which was quite funny since my husband didn't even mention it... so I could as well forget.
Most of the day I've ate, learned or insulted stupid japanfans, ah, and fangirls.
I'm starting to sound like a walking study book... since I have so much information about the 'Kalter Krieg' and the 'Bundeswehr'. I hope I'm at least getting better with German, beside learning new information... because in the end, no matter how much I know I need to figure out how to put it into words in German, and it's the hard part.
I've noticed that the more your learn, the less your brain hurts in the proses. Makes me kind of happy. Or is it only my determination that kicks the laziness away and wont let my brain suffer?
Tomorrow I'll get my first birthday present, my Mushishi manga (2nd Vol). Sadly most of my friends probably wont give me anything... and it makes me sad, but it doesn't matter since I'm bad with presents as well.
Generally, I think the best present for me now will be to pass everything and get what I want... and Finally be able to go and become the director I want to be...
For me being an actress is nothing more than passing the time, since it's fun to hang on the stage, but I feel like I'll start to grow roots and never be able to show off before my model director. I want to achieve world domination.
I wonder, why didn't I marry a director? or someone who has anything to do with the film/theater industry... in the end it is the best for my dreams...
but I guess that it doesn't matter, since I don't like getting my things too easy. That's why I'm growing fat.

Oldies Are Awesome

Oh, there is a pretty room for me too, since my old blog was closed. I found this site pretty epic, so I've decided to stick with it for a while.
I hate the fact that my net wont work good since I moved here, it's just annoying... my Internet connection wont get through since I'm living in the deeps of a valley.
I wonder when was the last time I ate something I really liked... it's like watching good and bad animations. You can watch both, but you enjoy only the deep and meaningful ones. Solids are also fine, but you always search for a better masterpiece.
Oh Gott, I wish I would stop talking nonsense and start focusing on getting my diploma... it's my last chance to get it anyway, since I wont try hard again. People should really learn hard in school and not drop out, it's the only way to get later on into the uni.
Actually, I'm pretty much into the Cold war right now, since I've started reading about it. I wonder, isn't it the best type of war ever existed beside the mind wars in seondeok yeowang?
Oh Gott, soon I'll be even older... I'm getting older every day. My back starts hurting and I just fall into depression thinking of how sad it'll be to wake up tomorrow, hugging the blanket. At least I don't have my morning bauchschmerzen anymore, everything thanks to watching yamanade hen. They actually gave me a good advice of drinking each time you wake up a big, full glass of water.
I was working the whole day, from 6am to 2pm in placing wood inside the shed... I think I died at least three times, or at least my back. It was endless at first, and than little by little, clearing one part after another, I was able to mark myself that the hill is not staying as it is, but getting smaller. Sysiphusarbeit.
But even though, I guess it was fun in a way, since I was working for a change in the -1°C cold outside... felt nostalgic in some absurd way.
Well, at least I fell asleep afterwards and didn't catch a cold (for now). The winter will be long and cold... and I wish I had a tablet.